Thursday Morning Thoughts

Hi Loves :)

I hope you are all having a wonderful week.

I've been kind of struggling these past couple of weeks.

New job, new commute, new schedule.

Going back and forth liking/hating my new role.

Coming home in tears, or with a little smile.

Being positive one day, and down-right negative the next.

I feel drained. Mentally. Physically.

On top of it, I caught a cold at the end of last week.

Friday morning, I was in the restroom at work, and could not stop sneezing.

On my seventh in-a-row sneeze, I strained my lower back.

(you can laugh, it's OK)

I could barely walk, and was sent home by my manager to work remotely.

By Friday evening, I could not walk straight.

I literally had to bend over like an old lady.

So I took it easy all weekend.

Loaded up on meds, ice packs/baths.

It wasn't pretty!

During those few days, I did a lot of thinking.

About my life, and about blogging.

I read a post from Emily, and it opened my eyes.

She summed it up perfectly.

I need to stop feeling so guilty for not posting every day.

I need to be OK with the fact that I have a really busy life.

I need to be OK with the fact that blogging is a hobby, not my first priority.

And I need to believe that my readers/followers will understand that.

It's interesting, because this topic has been going around, and it is a different situation for each bloggers.

I never started blogging to share my crafts, or skills, or anything really.

I blog because I like the social aspect of it, meeting really sweet/fun bloggers, and simply having something to distract me from the pressures of my daily life.

I mean, you can just tell by the fact that I started this blog in 2010, and I barely have a 100 followers.

I used to care about that, but I don't anymore.

Because I don't blog to be popular, or to gain followers.

I blog to escape.  But I mostly READ blogs.

So I may not always look "present", but don't be fooled.

I check all your blogs every day. 

I comment as much as I can. 

But I'm here. 

I wanted to talk about this, because I don't ever want you to feel neglected.

However I need to stop beating myself up for not being a good enough blogger.

So there, you have it :)

So please, bear with me on the weeks that I can't be "here" everyday.

Phew. OK. I feel a little better!

Oh and because I CANNOT stop listening to this, here you go!

such a Gleek!