I have to be honest with you ladies, I am going through a rough phase.
I knew this would happen, and I tried to prepare myself for it.
The truth is, I am not good with change. At all.
I keep telling myself that this is temporary.
Three months from now, I will probably look back, and laugh a little.
But right now, it’s hard. I don’t like it. I want to cry a lot.
I’m talking about my new job.
I know that starting a job is tough, and that it takes a while to adjust.
To understand the business, your new role, your reason for being there.
I am lost, friends. LOST. I feel like I don’t know what is going on.
I know why I’m here, and what I am going to be doing.
But I don’t know if I like it yet. It scares me.
I go home every night and I just cry a little.
Because I’ve lost my comfort, and my confidence.
I left a job where I felt smart, for a new job where I feel clueless.
I know it comes with the territory, and I know that it will get better.
But I swear, right now, at this very moment.
I just want to cry. I want to change careers. I want to stop working. .
I want to have babies and stay at home with them.
I want to hide.
I want to seclude myself for a couple of days, and not talk to anyone.
I just want to feel comfortable again.
I want to wake up, and WANT to come to work.
Again, I know this is a phase. It will get better.
In the meantime, I wanted to let you know that I am here.
I read all your blogs, because they put me in a better mood.
I’m still trying to adjust to this new schedule, this world.
Thank you for being here though.
Your comments, your sweet words, truly make my days.