Change & Adjusting

 

I have to be honest with you ladies, I am going through a rough phase.

I knew this would happen, and I tried to prepare myself for it.

The truth is, I am not good with change.  At all.

I keep telling myself that this is temporary.

Three months from now, I will probably look back, and laugh a little.

But right now, it’s hard.  I don’t like it.  I want to cry a lot.

I’m talking about my new job. 

I know that starting a job is tough, and that it takes a while to adjust.

To understand the business,  your new role, your reason for being there.

I am lost, friends.  LOST.  I feel like I don’t know what is going on.

I know why I’m here, and what I am going to be doing.

But I don’t know if I like it yet.  It scares me.

I go home every night and I just cry a little.

Because I’ve lost my comfort, and my confidence.

I left a job where I felt smart, for a new job where I feel clueless.

I know it comes with the territory, and I know that it will get better.

I KNOW.

But I swear, right now, at this very moment.

I just want to cry.  I want to change careers.  I want to stop working. .

I want to have babies and stay at home with them.

I want to hide.

I want to seclude myself for a couple of days, and not talk to anyone.

I just want to feel comfortable again.

I want to wake up, and WANT to come to work.

Again, I know this is a phase. It will get better.

In the meantime,  I wanted to let you know that I am here.

I read all your blogs, because they put me in a better mood.

I’m still trying to adjust to this new schedule, this world.

Thank you for being here though.

Your comments, your sweet words, truly make my days.

:)